I just dropped Little One off at school a couple of hours ago. It was rather anti-climactic. I didn’t cry. He didn’t cry. The teacher smiled and Husband and I left. I shed a few tears on my way out of the school, but not much else, until I started going through my WordPress reader and found all those homeschool blogs that I followed last year when I homeschooled him. That’s when it hit me and I started bawling and had the urge to eat my weight in Cool Whip. It’s dairy free! The house is quiet, for the first time since I gave birth to that little rugrat. It’s painfully quiet.
I’ve been quiet for the past week or two. I haven’t been able to read and comment on your blogs like I love to do. Sure I’ve been more busy, getting the kids ready for school and buying two copies of Strunk and White’s Element of Style, because the first one we bought was the wrong edition. I’ve been busy finding out Little One may need glasses and that Teen got put into two U.S. History classes, the AP one they told her she was ineligible to sign up for and the Honors one she signed up for to replace the AP one. That’s not why I’m quiet, though.
I’m quiet because that’s what I do when I face an emotional blitzkrieg. I shrink into myself, much like a turtle retreats to its shell when facing peril. When I realized that I was doing it here, as well as in my life beyond the keyboard, I had a realization. I set out to write a blog of random thoughts, but wanted it to be authentic. Moreover, I wanted to have the courage to do that. I think I’ve dipped my toe in the courage pool and I continue to wade deeper and deeper still, but I have only been able to do that with the help of the amazing writers and readers I’ve found here.
So I figured instead of writing a “woe is me” post, I’d update my blogroll and thank some more folks who make me want to write more, read more, be more. Plus I could never write a better post about my worries letting Little One try out “regular school” than theadventuresoftransman did. That is why I had to Freshly Slap him. He had it coming! I’m also Slapping the hell out of Lame Adventures and 1800ukillme. There are so many more, but I’ll add those during my next nervous breakdown. Please, leave a link in the comments to anything that I should have read in the past week and a half, but couldn’t. If I haven’t said it before, let me just tell you how much I enjoy this thing we do here. Thank you.